2020 has been an emotional year for all and my life especially the past few months have been filled with uncertainty and turmoil. When I reflect back upon this year, there are many things to praise and many things to grieve.
22 The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases;[a]
his mercies never come to an end;
23 they are new every morning;
great is your faithfulness.
The Book of Lamentations shows that praise and grief often go hand-in-hand. I’ve enjoyed the immense love of friends near and far with encouragement, food and prayer. My mom has stayed with me for a few months now and I’m grateful for her taking care of me. I already started complaining and grumbling about my mom’s cooking the day after Thanksgiving, so I gotta keep practicing gratitude and humility on a daily basis. I’m grateful for no negative side-effects to any of the treatments so far. I’ve been approved for CA state and disability insurance for duration of the medical leave. All of these blessings though come from a hardship that I don’t yet understand, but will have for the rest of my life. I’ll share about the grief and frustrations at a later time, but for now, I’m holding onto the assurance that His steadfast love never ceases and His mercies are new every morning. With all the uncertainty, I am taking things one day at a time. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble (Matthew 6:34).